Today is my Birthday

I'm only 19 now today, but already I'm feeling existential and thoughtful. Birthdays are still a little exciting, even though it's going to be similar to every other day of the year, but with facebook wishes from whomever takes the time to notice it's my birthday.

I know that one day I'll dread my birthday, when the first digit gets higher and higher. I got a new tattoo today, and that makes me thoughtful, too, about how one day the body I'm in will age and be buried, or burnt to ashes.

These aren't the most cheerful birthday thoughts, so I'm really just trying to be happy that I get to pick what we have for dinner and I get a few small gifts and to spend the day with my grandmother. I don't know why I'm feeling melancholy, or why I'm typing out all of this here. I suppose it's because no one really reads this and when they do, I'll be in a much nicer portion of life, where there's no time to be existential and dismal.

I'm not even really unhappy, just full of brain fluff and thoughts. Anywho... I'm happy. It's my birthday, and there's some crazy natural energies, bizarre astronomical events, and I feel like this year things will be happening. Big, big things. I'll see you on the other side.

Day IGAF

Alright... my illness is finally over, but it really put me behind on my daily post plans. I think about the blog daily, so I know I'll be able to continue it, but daily, I realized, is a challenge I might not be able to meet under every circumstance. So I'm going to post frequently, and I feel awful about revoking my daily post plans, but at this point I'm just happy to not be throwing up every meal, and maintaining that is my highest priority.
Love and peace.

Day 10- Last minute

This is a post, for reals.
It is a poem about not missing a post
Because it's not midnight yet
I am still not in the swing of things
My day has been bland
Tomorrow I will do something

"Day 9" Substitute- Songs

I'm totally in love with A Fine Frenzy. I'm only going to post this song, but "Pinesong," "What I Wouldn't Do," "Swan Song," and "Borrowed Time" are my other favorites.

This is my current favorite song. Somehow every melodic trick/sound I've loved in other songs seems to be a part of this song. It's gorgeous, dark, and the music and lyrics are haunting. I adore it.

"Day 8" Substitute- Photo

Day 7- Back in action... or something

Well,I'm 96% better, thanks to the miracle of Pepto Bismal. So today, being OCD, I'm going to make this short post saying I'm alive and okay, a post of a drawing of mine, and then a post of a few songs I've been obsessed with recently.

Soooo yeah, that's about it then. My week so far has been torture since Friday, and I've basically been in bed in a fetal position since then. I have not had fun... but I'm getting better, so... I will be back on schedule soon.

Day Six- Ugh

I'm only popping in to inform anyone, if  this blog is even read by anyone, that I'm ill. I'll try to post tomorrow, but I feel awful now.