Today is my Birthday

I'm only 19 now today, but already I'm feeling existential and thoughtful. Birthdays are still a little exciting, even though it's going to be similar to every other day of the year, but with facebook wishes from whomever takes the time to notice it's my birthday.

I know that one day I'll dread my birthday, when the first digit gets higher and higher. I got a new tattoo today, and that makes me thoughtful, too, about how one day the body I'm in will age and be buried, or burnt to ashes.

These aren't the most cheerful birthday thoughts, so I'm really just trying to be happy that I get to pick what we have for dinner and I get a few small gifts and to spend the day with my grandmother. I don't know why I'm feeling melancholy, or why I'm typing out all of this here. I suppose it's because no one really reads this and when they do, I'll be in a much nicer portion of life, where there's no time to be existential and dismal.

I'm not even really unhappy, just full of brain fluff and thoughts. Anywho... I'm happy. It's my birthday, and there's some crazy natural energies, bizarre astronomical events, and I feel like this year things will be happening. Big, big things. I'll see you on the other side.